recent selfie
living in fear of dying
every single minute of the day now
heavy thoughts occupy my mind
I wanna be dumb
and blissfully unaware again
I wanna fall for the boys like before
I am looking for so many world truths
cant seem to handle them though..
..but sometimes
I don't wanna know anything
or go anywhere at all
all I wanna do is create
and if im not creating
I feel like im dying
I hate feeling like this
is it normal ? is it this meant to happen like this?
who is okay living like this ?
I know this isn't anything new
who should I ask?
I hate not having anywhere I can be social at
around me
in my area
cant find ppl like me
im not weird
I know there's other ppl like this
where the fuck ARE YOU
I LOOK FOR YOU
CANT SEEM TO REACH YOU
I know
in reality
this is just life
this is normal for me
and my destiny...