Dear Diary.. wicked thoughts again..
Dear Diary...
as a woman, I cant stand faking it any longer
you know what I mean
smile to get paid...
be nice to those you despise
make those numbers work
while you work harder for the numbers
You know what whats even more pathetic when a motherfucker
thinks you have no reason to be upset
be happy 24/7 be perfectly FINE ALL THE TIME YOU DUMB BITCH
sometimes the pressure isn't worth it
neither is following all the rules
fuck surrender..
fuck spending
spend to suppress
curling your lashes while crying
oh so me
to hide the ugly scars on your face
oh so fuckn me
to hate in the mirror
is a dead end
a waste of time
then they come in
the insecurities
in this wild place
life on earth
these rulers
these kings
or fuckn wannabes
they expect your respect
well fuck that
and fuck you
they expect you to be fuckn nice...
after the hell
they put us through
oh fuck off motherfucker
in this sickening disturbing world
a dangerous world
with death at ever corner
death in mind 27/7
the thoughts never go away
easy prey
so fucken scared
so angry
so vulnerable
So much hate
So much anger
exhausting thoughts about the world
world issues
everyone has issues
cannot let them win
yet at some point
its time to be tough
frozen by fears
unable
Disoriented and distracted
unhealthy and making even more unhealthier choices
everyday they compound
just like that interest rate on your debt
the foolishness pays the way everyday
the dark warm shivering
Anxious fuckn disaster
war at every corner
feeling of heavy energy
Lost and forgotten
I stay 💋
✚✦★also check out my new song hehe <333 ✦★
p.s this post isn't an invite to the dark side of my mind lol
do not give my happy people advice
If I want it I'll look 4 it
this whole mindset will
be renewed and rearranged in a month...
